Where do I begin?

I guess I’ll start by saying this- I went through a crisis last year. It all started when I gave my therapist a detailed list of all of the things that are wrong with my employer. A list so detailed you’d think I was getting paid to write it. A list that was even accompanied by recommendations for improvement and a call to action! 

And do you know what my therapist said? 

“Why don’t you just quit?” Yes, those where her words. Why. Don’t. You. Just. Quit. I sat there looking at her with disbelief.

My initial reaction was to be defensive, but I’ve been working with Roxanne for years so I knew something good was coming. So, instead I said something along the lines of “because when I graduated this is the place where I wanted to work and I always imagined myself retiring here.” And she said something like, “Oh. So you were initially happy working here, but things have changed.” 

And that is when I realized… I’ve never been happy working here.

Me: “This is just the way things are supposed to be.” 

Roxanne: “According to who?” 

Me: “Society.” 

Roxanne: “Society is not saying that you have to stay at this particular job that you do not like” 

And that is when I went into panic mode...

What am I doing with my life and why am I doing these things?! 

I spent the next couple of weeks trying to figure out WHY I’ve been living my life like this. And, I came up with… yes, you guessed it, a list. 

Are you curious about that list? Read my next post to find out!